My First Time

I couldn't resist the temptation. There was only one thing on my mind and nothing else. Once it was out there, that was it; what else was I supposed to do!?

Today was the first time I locked myself out of my own house. Many-a-time have I locked myself out of my vehicle. There was:

1. At Marie Callender's
2. Marie Callender's again
3. The Tibayan house in Diamond Bar
4. 76 gas station
5. The Tibayan place behind St. Martha
6. In front of my own house

And then there was today. Read my story first. I was headed outside to do a bit of laundry; with the basket in one hand, I checked the first door to unlock it just in case I should close it behind me. Unknowingly, I opened the second door, locked it, and closed it behind me. That's when it hit me--oh, no. I loaded the washer and began to laugh. What else could I do? I thought about calling someone for help (since it was ten minutes before I had to pick up Mitch), but I remembered that my phone was in the house! In fact, everything was in the house! Good one, I know. There was only one thing I could do--wait. I had no choice but to wait for Mitch to come home and unlock the door.

That was my day, how was yours?

Twenty-Seven

Twenty-Seven Dresses is a super movie. I don't care what you say, it's my new favorite romantic comedy. That's it. I love, love, love it.

Single Girls

Oh, this song almost embodies it all--keyword is almost.

Laura Jansen - Single Girls

I think you'd like my new hair. I cut it when you weren't there that pieces of us everywhere were falling down. My bed is now a girl's bed. Pink flowers under my head and pillows on your side instead of you. Because that's what single girls do, don't think about you. I'm reading books on meditation. Praying for my heart's salvation. I've got the motivation to be a free girl now. I've gone drinking with the guy down the hall, put up a new color on my bare walls. I'm so damn busy, after all. Because that's what single girls do, don't think about you. I keep trying. I keep trying to make my way back to the light where I belong. But God keeps lying. God keeps lying saying this is for the best, and nothing here is wrong. But I'm still thinking about you. I think you'd like my new hair. I cut it like I didn't care that pieces of me everywhere were falling down. One more glass of wine before I turn off the lights this time I'll be fine. I'll be fine. I'll be fine.

Okay, so maybe it doesn't embody it all, not even almost. Maybe I just like the music and how it plays. Maybe I just like the way she sings it. Maybe I just like the song. I think that's it.

Likewise, I believe that being single really is the best thing right now. There is so much more time! There is time to be spent with family members, besties, friends, co-workers, and alone time. It is liberty, it is life...a single life. Sounding a little selfish, I can spend time the way I want to, when I want to. There is no need for consideration of schedules, and useless bickering over unfulfilled plans and promises. But being single isn't all that selfish as I'm sounding. As was aforementioned, there is time. Time to listen, search, and find what God has truly called his people to do. His work is before the called singles of his Kingdom who are not made weary by the married and family life; there aren't as many concerns to please a partner other than Christ himself. I love that. People are difficult to please and deal with anyway.

But I must not be mistaken for not wanting a partner for life. It must be grand to have a husband (or a wife for the fellow). There must be upsides of having a spouse, such as: a constant confidant, someone to come home to, a lover, a hater, and an I-don't-know-what-else-because-I'm-not-married.

However, being single is just super. I wouldn't change it. I love being single for now, this day.

How So

How in two years can I write only a total of six blogs here? That makes complete sense to me. Oh wait, I deleted some. Mystery solved.

I suppose to follow suit would be to bid adieu to 2007 and gratefully greet 2008. Okay, let us try it! In 2007, I have learned a lot. Matters of the heart are very serious and should be treated as such. Freely giving your heart and all its love on a whimsical feeling of forever is foolish and may result in much heartache. Searching for love must be a joke because it cannot be found, rather love is the seeker. It is best to listen to and learn from the wise. Learning from one's own mistakes is a long and cruel process, but I suppose no generation ever listens to that phrase.

Keep this in mind for 2008: There is no better replacement for any emptiness or happiness other than the Lord himself. Trials, temptations, and tribulations are not orchestrated in life for any other reason than to make us cling to the faith in Christ ever so closely. Believe that God has provided a window for a way out where the door has closed. So, maybe not a window...but there is a way somewhere.

Excitement settles in my heart for this unpredictable new year.

Winter Time

The winter time is here...finally! There is so much room for growth, and much is expected. A few things that I would like to see change during this winter is the re-establishment of relationships. God places people in our lives for a reason.

With some people, I have had this feeling that we are to be friends despite distances. Unfortunately, with others, I just pray that God will keep them safe. Is there anything else I can do to save the friendship? Or should I let the divine plan of God reveal itself in God's time?

In any manner, the season of giving is becoming difficult for me--as of now. This heart of mine...the lack of words to describe it is its best. I suppose my heart is like the bitter cold, harsh wind, and ice...frozen.