The winter time is here...finally! There is so much room for growth, and much is expected. A few things that I would like to see change during this winter is the re-establishment of relationships. God places people in our lives for a reason.
With some people, I have had this feeling that we are to be friends despite distances. Unfortunately, with others, I just pray that God will keep them safe. Is there anything else I can do to save the friendship? Or should I let the divine plan of God reveal itself in God's time?
In any manner, the season of giving is becoming difficult for me--as of now. This heart of mine...the lack of words to describe it is its best. I suppose my heart is like the bitter cold, harsh wind, and ice...frozen.
Donnerstag, 13. Dezember 2007
Dienstag, 4. Dezember 2007
When
When will I finish school? It feels like forever. I pray that this will all end soon.
[A few hours later]
So I managed to write 5 pages for a portfolio that was due today. Yep, procrastination sure pays off! Now I have 10-12 more pages to write for a paper due Thursday. Yay. I should start making lists, but at the same time build accountability with people. That sounds good. Time to write, write, write!!
[A few hours later]
So I managed to write 5 pages for a portfolio that was due today. Yep, procrastination sure pays off! Now I have 10-12 more pages to write for a paper due Thursday. Yay. I should start making lists, but at the same time build accountability with people. That sounds good. Time to write, write, write!!
Freitag, 17. August 2007
Update Myself Please
It has been a while since I have last posted a blog. Maybe it is time for me to update myself.
Work--It has been reasonable. Lately I've been keeping to myself while working. I do not put myself out there to socialize with people at work anymore. I go to work, to work. What more do I need? Although I have been hanging out with my manager lately...we are friends? I suppose so. I would like to move up a position, but I do not know how. It makes me want to look for another job. We shall see...
School--Has not begun yet. I am excited. With thirteen units under me, I hope in faith that I will pass them all. No dropping. That is my rule. If one may say, I resolve that I will devote my time into school and less hanging out. I pray that I will be able to focus because I need to. Being faithful in this little thing will help me in being faithful in bigger things later in this life.
Family--I miss them because I hardly make time to see them. I know my family misses me because of the comments they make. "You're out too much" "You're never home" etc. I have been cutting back on hanging out lately. Okay, maybe not as much as I should...but it is summer time, and school is starting soon. I hope my parents will understand, not likely though.
Love--My heart is not torn, nor is it whole. It seems to me that I am trying to enjoy singleness, but cannot. Maybe it is that I do not want to be single since I have not been single in so long. I have always been by someone's side, as a friend, friend, or girlfriend. Eight years now...I cannot go on just yet. He said to me a few days ago: "Now that I am ready, you aren't. Ironic." Then the other one said to me the other day: "I was talking to my friend, and he mentioned to me, 'If you like her, and she likes you...what difference does it make that you guys are from a different faiths?'" Ugh. I do not know what else to do except to not talk to either one. That is not right though, and I know it.
Bible Time--Still is not well. I pray my heart does not become cold or lukewarm. It scares me so much when I think about God spewing me out of his mouth. It scares me that I take long to respond to his rebuke.
What else is there to cover? I spend too much. Remind me, please, to not spend anymore-- unless necessary.
Work--It has been reasonable. Lately I've been keeping to myself while working. I do not put myself out there to socialize with people at work anymore. I go to work, to work. What more do I need? Although I have been hanging out with my manager lately...we are friends? I suppose so. I would like to move up a position, but I do not know how. It makes me want to look for another job. We shall see...
School--Has not begun yet. I am excited. With thirteen units under me, I hope in faith that I will pass them all. No dropping. That is my rule. If one may say, I resolve that I will devote my time into school and less hanging out. I pray that I will be able to focus because I need to. Being faithful in this little thing will help me in being faithful in bigger things later in this life.
Family--I miss them because I hardly make time to see them. I know my family misses me because of the comments they make. "You're out too much" "You're never home" etc. I have been cutting back on hanging out lately. Okay, maybe not as much as I should...but it is summer time, and school is starting soon. I hope my parents will understand, not likely though.
Love--My heart is not torn, nor is it whole. It seems to me that I am trying to enjoy singleness, but cannot. Maybe it is that I do not want to be single since I have not been single in so long. I have always been by someone's side, as a friend, friend, or girlfriend. Eight years now...I cannot go on just yet. He said to me a few days ago: "Now that I am ready, you aren't. Ironic." Then the other one said to me the other day: "I was talking to my friend, and he mentioned to me, 'If you like her, and she likes you...what difference does it make that you guys are from a different faiths?'" Ugh. I do not know what else to do except to not talk to either one. That is not right though, and I know it.
Bible Time--Still is not well. I pray my heart does not become cold or lukewarm. It scares me so much when I think about God spewing me out of his mouth. It scares me that I take long to respond to his rebuke.
What else is there to cover? I spend too much. Remind me, please, to not spend anymore-- unless necessary.
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